I know I’ve been absent, haven’t had anything to share. I’ve been in a slump of sorts. Maybe even a bit of depression seeping in now and again. Getting through the holidays wasn’t easy. Fred and I struggled through holidays, not holiday related, but trying to figure out our relationship.
Coming out of the holidays, I haven’t had a lot of desire to blog. Well, that’s not true. I’ve wanted to blog, I just haven’t had the energy/mojo to get it done. I’ve made a list of things I’d like to talk about and the SITSgirls have monthly writing prompts that I’ve done a few times. I just haven’t blogged.
I’ve been SO desperate for friendships here. Sitting at home, working all day, by myself, isolated, has left me so dry inside. No friendly faces. No one knowing my name. No one knowing me here. It has been a very desolate time in my life, this past year.
I’m a people person. I crave interaction with others. All I’ve mostly had are my boys and Fred. Yes, we go to church, but it’s so big, there are rarely familiar faces. I come from a place where everywhere I went I was known. I’m a small town girl. People knew me, knew my kids.
A few weeks ago at church when I was dropping my son off to go to his class, there was a family ahead of me at church for the first time. I didn’t think much of it, then saw them in the service and decided I’d go introduce myself. They were super sweet and it was nice to connect with someone.
Last week, at the start of Bible study, I didn’t really pay a lot of attention to who was in my class. I don’t know people, so didn’t expect to see anyone familiar to me. As we were leaving class, the gal I had introduced myself to a couple weeks before stood up and said, “hi” to me!! A familiar face!
Well, tonight was a great night at church. There was another new gal there with a BABY!! I again went up and introduced myself to her. I don’t know what it is that’s in me that just has to do that. It doesn’t always happen, sometimes it just strikes me. Maybe, because they’re new, I know how they feel and they’ll have a familiar someone…something I didn’t have.
She ended up sitting next to me and we had a very bonding conversation before class started. It was SO good. I connected with someone. I’m beginning to be known again. As we were winding down our getting-to-know-you, in walked my other new friend. And what does she do? she hugs me!! My heart was SO happy! I’m a hugger. To be hugged means a lot to me! Then she hugged me when class was over and she was leaving.
God knew I’ve come to the end of what I can bear without friends around me. I’m just so happy that I can go to church on Sunday and see familiar faces and have names to put with them. I’ll definitely be keeping my eye out so they know that they’re known as well!
If you’re ever in a situation where there are new people, do you step up and introduce yourself?